"Isn't this where its all headed anyway? You can fight it or you can rock out to it."
-Corny Collins, Hairspray
I have been thinking about my future husband...if there is one for me. I have been guilty of fighting my qualms of singleness by saying, "Well, I know there will be someone out there for me. God will bring him to me." (et cetera) BUT...here's a crazy thought, self: What if there isn't a Mr. Right for you? What if you're called to singleness? Celibacy?
Following Christ is about a life of sacrifice. What if Christ has called me to sacrifice the thing that was holding me back from truly following him for years...forever? Could I make that kind of commitment? Most of the women in the modern missions movement have been single women. They have been powerful and strong women, but single nonetheless. I began to wonder if that would be my plight in the future.
Regardless, here is my point...I think. My God, my calling, and my future are all parts of me that I am not willing to budge on unless they are changed by the Holy Spirit. If someone wants to be with me, they either have to jump on this crazy train or not even attempt to board. You cannot marry a missionary without being one. Therefore, a man has to be seriously certain about me and about being a radical follower of Jesus to even consider pursuing me. The end.
God has just been working through these things with me and I thought I might share them with my blogstalkers. :) Love you all.
