Saw 3D Review...Life Update...Home Church Love

I tried a new hairstyle yesterday and I really, really like it :)










Well I went to see Saw 3D...or Saw VII for those of you who aren't familiar :)...SPOILER ALERT!

I thought it was well written. The whole series is. Some people say that it has gone on too long but I've never lost my interest in it. It continues to be suspenseful...I am disappointed that it has finally come to an end. What do I have to look forward to on Halloween now?

When they began to reveal that Dr. Gordon has been involved the whole time I felt so awesome about myself. I predicted that! I've always wondered how Jigsaw had been doing the surgical type things for the traps - the man with the key behind his eye, the couple connected with spears, the man with the key in his ribs, etc. I had never really suspected Dr. Gordon but I have always wondered what really happened to him...and when he was in the beginning of the movie and at the support group, I knew there had to be something with him.

For a brief moment, I thought maybe Hoffman was going to die via one of his own traps...which would have been an awesome demise. It was a cool way to avenge him, though, to have survivors attack him. I liked it and though I feel like they could've had a better feeling of resolve - that isn't who they are as writers. If they wanted you to feel resolve about things they wouldn't have made any of the movies!! Overall, I saw WELL DONE! :)

Lately the Lord has been teaching me blind faith in the Holy Spirit. Let me tell you, it isn't easy. I have been struggling like crazy financially and have little way of escaping. I need to find a job so please pray hard for that. Anyway, my mom has been extremely encouraging about my financial trouble. She told me to remember that the Lord will provide. She has never said anything like that to me. Its crazy :).

I've learned to be satisfied with my singleness...even though there are so many new couples this time of year. I have seen so much more fruit in my life in the last 1.5+ years that I've been single than I did in most of the rest of my spiritual life. Even Dr. Frost, my ICS prof has noticed. I wrote in a paper that this last year has been one of significant spiritual growth and discipline...and he commented saying that he notices in my attitude. <3 It really touches my heart (and of course the Lord knows that) to have authority figures in my life notice things like that.

I'm signing up for my last semester of classes at SBU. Its strange to think that this time next year I'll be half way across the world. An exciting kind of strange, though!

I miss my friends from home. I wish I could go there more often or that they could come here. Especially right now when I know one of them could benefit from my being there...even though nothing I say ever actually changes her mind, I know she would love to hear my words of wisdom. I love my friends and I can't wait to see them over Thanksgiving :)

I want to say a few things about my home church, while I'm spilling. lol
I don't know how I would have ever grown in Christ had it not been for the love and encouragement that I've always received from my family at First Missionary Baptist of Flat Rock. Sometimes I know I like to express my disenchantment with the church, or how I'm seen as a radical at my home church. I have come to realize that these people are limited in their worldview and I can't expect them to know everything or accept all of my romanticized ideals of "religion". They have been the most sacrificially giving people I have ever known. I would have never been able to go on my trips or do some of the amazing things I've been able to had it not been for the overwhelming support from my church. If you are reading this, I love you with the love that only comes straight from the Holy Spirit and I could not be more grateful for people who completely love me despite my lack of sanity :)

My prayer for you this week is that you allow the Spirit to guide your every step. That you would listen to what He has to say and do what He leads you to do. I love you all <3

Mature...

Back Story:
Recently, I rebuked a man for calling me sexy. He told me that I was "blowing things out of context". He also told me to grow up..and that he's not one of my high school students that I can just lecture just because I can't take a compliment. Hmm. Really? Because he's a thirty year old calling a twenty year old sexy. Normally I don't like to call people out or talk about specific instances in my life whilst blogging, but I can't help but rant about this. It. is. ridiculous.

So I've been thinking:

What kind of twisted world do we live in where maturity is equated to accepting a degrading compliment? What sort of legacy is he leaving to his young daughters? Would he want someone to call them sexy? Being called "sexy" isn't a compliment to me - it is offensive. Apparently, though, that makes me immature.  Was I supposed to swoon at the thought of receiving male attention, no matter the degree of inappropriateness?

What, then, shall we use as a standard of measure in determining how mature one is? Status? Wealth? Sexual conquests? Success? Please let it never be. Though I may amongst the few and the proud, I am a classy woman...not some tramp that you can slap on the rear and demand her to get you a beer. I am a woman, called by my Lord to be a cut above what my culture considers socially acceptable. I will not tolerate that kind of behavior. I was made for greater things than to be someone's object of sexual desire.

You may consider this "blowing things out of context" but I consider it a step in the right direction for my gender and for myself. The only person who will ever be allowed to call me sexy is my future husband...and until I meet him, I better never hear those words from any man again. :)