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Wednesday, September 22, 2010

You'll Always Be My Baby

Today I've really been contemplating my father's love for me. I called him today and talked for a substantial amount of time..which is not a "norm" for our conversations. He's been going through some stuff and my being so far away makes it hard for me to be there for him. I enjoy just conversing with my dad - and I know that his world revolves around my sister and I.

I am seeing how, although my dad is a non-believer, he exemplifies the fatherly characteristics of God. No matter what I do, my dad loves me with all he has. He is always swollen with pride for whatever insignificant achievement I accomplish. The amount of time he spends worrying about me is ridiculous. He worries about protecting my heart.

On that note, I feel like he feels as if he failed me when Taylor broke my heart. He had never liked him but gave us his blessing to continue in marriage. The way he was talking seemed as though he sees himself at fault because he allowed it; not that I would have listened to him if he had objected. I have since learned to trust his judgment. He told me, "The next guy that comes asking for your hand is going to have to go through me. There's too much at stake."

I realized that though my dad's affections are sometimes misguided or overzealous, that I will always be his little girl. I am his baby. The love and joy that he experienced that first day he held me continues to regenerate his love for me now. Its never going to change. Nor is God's love for me, for us. Yes, He is sovereign, He is fearsome, He is powerful. Remarkably, He is love. He is wonderful, never-ending, I-knew-I-loved-you-before-I-met-you, reckless abandon, guarding your heart, guiding your path LOVE!!

Ponder that for a while. :)

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